final day

AS  I AM COMING TO MY FINAL DAY

I ONLY HAVE THIS TO SAY

IT WAS EITHER YOU OR ME WE CANT BE HERE TOGETHER

AND TO THINK I THOUGHT IT WAS FOREVER

BUT IT WAS JUS A LIE U GOT ME TO BELIVE

SOMETHIN YOU TRIED TO MAKE ME SEE

BUT LVOE DOESNT EXSIST ITS AS FAKE AS A SOUL

AND IT LEFT ME NOTHING BUT A WHOLE

IF A SOUL EXISTED THERE WOULD BE SOMEHTIN TO MAKE IT SHOW

BUT ITS NOTHIN ESPECIALLY IN ME ITS JUS SORROW

I AM NOT SORRY FOR ANY OF THE THINGS I WILL DO RIGH BEFORE I LEAVE THIS WORLD

I CANT APOLIGIZE THEY HAVE TAKIN AS MUCH FORM ME AS I HAVE FROM THEM AND NOW ITS JUS GETTING OLD

WITH MY LAST BREATHES I WILL SAY THE ONLY TRUTH I KNOW

THAT U FUCKED ME OVER AND THIS IS GOING TO SHOW

THAT I NEVER FORGIVE AND I NEVER FORGET

THIS LIFE ITS JUS AWAY FOR ME TO TRY AND GET IT

IF I LIVE OR I DIE NO ONE WILL CARE

JUS LIKE NO ONE WAS EVER THERE

DONT TRY TO SAY U WERE CAUSE I KKNOW THE TRUTH

U COULD CARE LESS FOR ME WHY DONT U GET A FUCKIN CLUE

I COULD SAY I DONT CARE ABOUT U AT ALL BUT THAT WOULD BE A LIE

PART OF ME IS NOT NUMB YET BUT THAT PART WILL SOON DIE

IM LOOKIN STRIAGHT INTO THE BLADE RIGHT NOW

AND THAT WILL SHOW ME THE FINALLY WAY HOW

I CAN RID THIS WORLD OF EVERYONE WHO HURT ME

AND THEN THEY WILL SEE

THAT ONCE THEY ARE GONE I WILL FOLLOW THEM TO THE DEPTHS OF HELL

AND THEN DOWN THERE IWLL SAY FARE WELL

CAUSE I HAVE NO MORE LITTLE VOICE TELLIN ME TO DO GOOD

EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I SHOULD

BUT HTAT IS HOW I KNOW I HAVE NO SOUL

AGAIN JUS A BOTTOMLESS FUCKING WHOLE

I HAVE NO WAY TO TELL RIGHT FROM WRONG

ALL I HAVE HIS EMPTY HOPES AND THIS SONG

MAYBE U WILL FEAL GUILTY WHEN I DIE

BUT I DONT THINK YOU WILL YOU WONT EVEN CRY

GUILT ONCE WAS FUNNY THING

IF I STILL FELT IT I WOULD CARE WHEN I HEAR THEM SCREAM

BUT I DONT AND I AM GETTIN CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE DAY

IT WILL ALL GET BETTER THAT IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY

I am the freak

ok here is wat i have to say

i want everyone to feal this feal the same way

but i know that is imposible i know that is wrong i know i shouldnt want it

why would i want to wish this pain on all these happy innocent people who dont put up wit this shit

but realize this no one is innocent no one is without blame it was not one person who made me this way

it was everyone i know there r people who were there for me

but r u really there or r u jus tryin to see

that everyone wants to get somethin

i mean u cant get anythin for nothin

so once u admit wat u want out of me

then i can stop this shit for then u will see

admit it or not accpet or dont

you are as much of a freak as me

and maybe more until u say it cause you see

i accpet wat i am a ASSHOLE a mistake i know i am the freak no one wants to take

once u admit to the world wat you are u can live a happy life

but for me there is no happy there is only strife

i feal like if i end this mistake of a life then maybe i would be happy

but i wouldnt because then the people who drove me to this would win and i dont want that to be

i want to be at one were i can end my life

but they wouldnt get the joy the would get the strife

if i can end this pittiful exsistence and throw all my pain onto them

that would be great i would love to see wat happenst then

so take this for wat u see

I AM THE FREAK I AM JUST ME

for me

you keep pushing and pushing to see wat i will do

but that is so fuckin stupid u know the shit i have been threw

but still over and over waiting utnil i finally snap

well that time is now bitch no longer can i take this crap

you wanna act like you r so much better then me

well jus u wait jus watch then we will see how it will be

after i am done with wat i have planned

no one will talk and they will all understand

no some people say i should not feal this way

i should jus let it be let it be

but that isnt who i am that isnt me

because when you think about it all you people cna deny

same im not wat i am but why cant u just stop the lie

i admit fully that i am a freak an asshole and gods biggest regret

i cant wait till this is over wait till i see you with your last breat

so wanna take my life from me bitch

just you wait and see CAUSE NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY U CANT STOP ME

see no matter how hard you try

even though i want to i will not die

cause i know i can cause you more pain in life then in death

i will make your life a living hell i swear that with my last breath

once you accept me for wat i am today

then you see i will have nothing else to say

the funny thing is these writings r wat u said labled me as a freak

but right now i am seein you for the one who is weak

you want me to calm down and be like everyone else

but i cant i dont want to be just another face in the crowd i wanna be myself

and if you cant excpet that then dont fuckin step to me

cause u take it back wait and see

all my problems will come back to you

cuase you were the start of it and now there is nothing that you can do

cause now that i got started i wont stop until i know

that you feal the pain i feal and with that i will show

how if i am a freak then wat does that make you

cause u loved me and thats the wore thing you can do

puttin all your love in trust in someone who doesnt trust themselves

that is the stupidest think i ever heard its even wores then someone rotting in hell

which in time is were you or i will go

and when that day comes to the world i will show

i never really had a soul just emptiness

i dont even want to be saved or to have any forgivness

i can excpet my futre wat it will bring you see

now god if your there whyd ont u jus take me

i have been asking for so long to jus be takin away

but no one does anything and they dont have anything to say

you see i am beyond saving there is ntohing you can do for me

and i dont even care any more cause with my eyes i can see

if i go to heaven or hell either place you wont be

and that will be a great feeling cause you i wont have to see

no if i go to hell not sayin you would go to heaven

i would feal great cause there would be no deception

no the slight chance i would go to heaven and you go down to hell

i would be lookin down laughin as you leave behind that self centred shell

i alone control my own future no one can say wat i should do or wat i should see

so live or die keeping goin or give up this is my chocie to make and i know wat the final final bell will ring for me