for me

you keep pushing and pushing to see wat i will do

but that is so fuckin stupid u know the shit i have been threw

but still over and over waiting utnil i finally snap

well that time is now bitch no longer can i take this crap

you wanna act like you r so much better then me

well jus u wait jus watch then we will see how it will be

after i am done with wat i have planned

no one will talk and they will all understand

no some people say i should not feal this way

i should jus let it be let it be

but that isnt who i am that isnt me

because when you think about it all you people cna deny

same im not wat i am but why cant u just stop the lie

i admit fully that i am a freak an asshole and gods biggest regret

i cant wait till this is over wait till i see you with your last breat

so wanna take my life from me bitch

just you wait and see CAUSE NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY U CANT STOP ME

see no matter how hard you try

even though i want to i will not die

cause i know i can cause you more pain in life then in death

i will make your life a living hell i swear that with my last breath

once you accept me for wat i am today

then you see i will have nothing else to say

the funny thing is these writings r wat u said labled me as a freak

but right now i am seein you for the one who is weak

you want me to calm down and be like everyone else

but i cant i dont want to be just another face in the crowd i wanna be myself

and if you cant excpet that then dont fuckin step to me

cause u take it back wait and see

all my problems will come back to you

cuase you were the start of it and now there is nothing that you can do

cause now that i got started i wont stop until i know

that you feal the pain i feal and with that i will show

how if i am a freak then wat does that make you

cause u loved me and thats the wore thing you can do

puttin all your love in trust in someone who doesnt trust themselves

that is the stupidest think i ever heard its even wores then someone rotting in hell

which in time is were you or i will go

and when that day comes to the world i will show

i never really had a soul just emptiness

i dont even want to be saved or to have any forgivness

i can excpet my futre wat it will bring you see

now god if your there whyd ont u jus take me

i have been asking for so long to jus be takin away

but no one does anything and they dont have anything to say

you see i am beyond saving there is ntohing you can do for me

and i dont even care any more cause with my eyes i can see

if i go to heaven or hell either place you wont be

and that will be a great feeling cause you i wont have to see

no if i go to hell not sayin you would go to heaven

i would feal great cause there would be no deception

no the slight chance i would go to heaven and you go down to hell

i would be lookin down laughin as you leave behind that self centred shell

i alone control my own future no one can say wat i should do or wat i should see

so live or die keeping goin or give up this is my chocie to make and i know wat the final final bell will ring for me